“When you fall, get right back up,” has always been my mantra ever since I entered college. Being a risk-taker myself, it is common for me to have failures on what I am doing in life. However, I still find myself still facing to my problems, undaunted despite the fact that I always stumble and fall to the crashing waves of my troubles. Sometimes I always doubt on myself on what I can do, but I always find myself not letting go of the things I do. I always hold on until I can achieve it, proving people who didn’t believe in me wrong.
Of course, I wasn’t always like this. Before, I was always swayed by other people. Many people, including my family, thinks that I am always that one who doesn’t last long on something. I always please people before, doing things what I could think people would like for me to do. Also, I had an enormous fear of failing, thinking that I will disappoint several people if I trip and fall flat in my face. I was supposed to be a part of an annual play in the university but my weak side got into me, which caused my withdrawal from the play mid-rehearsals. All I felt was guilt after I did that, making excuses in front of everyone. However, I thought that if I persevere more, I could’ve overcome my anxiety.
But I learned that there will always be risks whatever situation we are in; I realized that I am not comfortable playing safe in life. Life should not be compared to a game where you can restart whenever something goes wrong. One, however, could try to exert effort to do something that no one could expect.
Realizing that, I finally learned that I could achieve anything if I stay headstrong and keep my eyes on the prize that I want. There may be negative thoughts lingering about, but I try my best to have an optimistic outlook in life and believe in people who always support me in any endeavors I venture. I tried to do this in my academics last semester, and my grades went significantly higher compared to past semesters.
This semester I auditioned again to that play hoping that I can now do it, having this positive mindset of mine equipped. I won’t back down this time. Now, I will pour my heart out into it like it is the first and last show where I will be in. Maybe, I will see the results of my own brand of grit if it happens.